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I really need to put on my big girl pants sometime this year or nothing will change in my life. I'm so dedicated to taking chances and going after the dreams and goals when the failure is only on my side of things. Add factors out of my control and I sit in my safe little corner and don't rock the boat for fear of failure that I can't control. Scott's Facebook today reads "in a relationship" :( I'm feeling sorry for myself but I know this is my own fault. I never told him how I felt because fear and so of course I was never in the running.Yet I still have that, kicked in the guts, stabbed in the heart, can't breath feeling. I really have to do something to change my own situation because I do not want to be single anymore. I'm 32 now, the biological clock has turned up its ticking volume, babies everywhere and it's like my hormones hit a new level of ridiculous and I recently had a 5 minute pregnancy scare from a one night stand and I was almost disappointed to get my period. What the fuck is that about? Babies and hormones aside I'm so sick of being single and i know I have to do something to change that. I don't know what because literally nothing but jerks exist and I'm not even exaggerating I'm on every available website and before anyone tells me I'm being judgmental and not giving people a go, seriously these guys pretty much have it written in their profile "I'm a jerk" I feel like I've hit a crossroads. Stay on the safe path and never change or take a risk, change jobs, move cities kind of risk, and see what happens.I'm so afraid of what failure means at the moment that I can't even think of what or how to change. Besides I'm too busy sulking about losing out on the Scott thing!

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SYDNEY SYDNEY SYDNEY!!!!!

ok property is ridiculously expensive, there is a high proportion of attractive intelligent males who unfortunately are unattainable because they are gay, and the straight men are probably as poor a selection as in Adelaide.... (wow I'm really selling it!) but I still think you'd like it here, there are a lot of the things you like to do. I could see you living over in the eastern beaches and ocean swimming every day.

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